Jaded

So much has happened in the past month. iCUBS has been formed and approved.

Those reading and don't know what the hell I'm talking about, click here. But being the president has taken alot out of me. Meeting after meeting after meeting. I have to admit though, it is hard being the boss. The others just don't put in enough effort. Either that or their work just ain't good enough. And it's my job to let them know. On top of that you have committee members who are always bitching about their counter-parts. Bitching and moaning about every single thing. Pussy boy. Wh can't you speak up in meetings?! On a more positive note, Ren Chong and Viana have really helped make my job slightly easier.

ABACUS FC entered the 5-a-side OSC World Cup last weekend. The team was Me, Adrian, Wing, Anthony, Kevin, Andrew and Thomas. We did so much better than we had expected. We made it through the group stages, all the way to the semi-finals; which had to be settled via a penalty shoot-out. We lost. I missed the decisive penalty in sudden death.






I made up for the missed penalty the following Wednesday against IC China. I told Adrian and Wing that I wanted to take the penalty which we had been awarded. And I managed to redeem myself.

My clinicals start on Tuesday. Looking forward to that. It's exactly a month now before I head back to Brunei for Xmas.

Adrian turned 24 on Wednesday. I bought him Champagne.

Re-Loaded

I need new motivation. It's the end of an Era. It feels as though I am now moving into the 3rd Phase of my life. The first phase, was my entire Primary school days and my first 2 secondary years. I generally enjoyed studying. Life was so much simpler then. I don't really have to elaborate.

Phase 2 started when I was about 14. Relationships & a whole load of bad stuff. But there were lots of ups too. And I really learnt alot. I've always thought that the 14-17 age defines what you turn out to be. A template for what you eventually become. Having said that, I think my 14-17 years were bitter sweet. They weren't bad at all, though at times I do regret half of the things said and done.

Now, comes a new age. A new generation of people. When it comes to friends, I think only 1 or 2 have been with me through the ages. I wonder if that's what happens throughout life.

Bought a new book. It's the 50 cent biography. £10, from HMV. Had coffee with Xian today after a long, long day at CX hospital.

A change of heart

Today had PBL in the morning. Was the scribe. Me and Sormeh are doing a presentation on the liability of a medical student. The case was about this final year student who forgot how the drugs were administered and got them mixed up. The paradox is that if he/she is a final year student, he/she should have done PBL and would have known his/her limits.

Had coffee with Xian in the afternoon. Ate at subway and then went back to my place for a bit.








Did a little spring cleaning. My mom's arriving tomorrow.

A change of heart, a change of mind. It's about time I do things differently.

Unusually, in the last 2 days, I have been thinking about my past relationships. Time really does seem to fly by so quickly. I can remember the first time I kissed a girl or did anything with the member of the opposite sex. All memories. Good & bad.

IC Abacus FC friendly match this Wednesday against the Koreans? I'm really excited about the midfiled partnership with Neil. It's looking pretty tight.

Which brings me to my next point. If you're in University. And you're in London. Wouldn't you want to play for your uni? Or at least try and represent a society, or something/anything to do with the university. Why do so many Bruneians just want to play amongst themselves? I don't get it.

Xian, remember how you told me before that you're really glad you have me as a friend? Well, I feel the same way too. I just didn't say it.

Beef burger

I've been getting very annoyed easily lately. Having mixed emotions about alot of things. Work-wise, forget about it. I'm focused! It's the other side of life that's bothering me.

Anyone who knows me, knows how I feel about cheating. I'm talking about relationships here. And recently, I was indirectly responsible for a little "action on the side." Basically, I introduce A to a friend of mine,B and well, you know the rest. I'm disappointed with B because to be honest, no one really forgets. She's gotta live with that. To the guy, I just lost alot of respect for him. If you're reading this, take this however you want. Call me rude for actually putting it out. Call me sensitive, call me old fashioned, just call me a man.

Which brings me to someone I love very dearly. This bestfriend of mine is generally very fickle. For instance, every guy she gets with seems to be her life. That is a very dangerous disease. Not just through personal experience but it makes sense. If you bank too much on one thing, your entire life crashes when that one thing falls. And in all aspects of life, everything comes to an end. Other things about the situation annoy me. Like 80% of the time she comes looking for me, it's because she has problems with her guy. I have no problem if you want to lay your problems out for me to hear. I'm all ears. Just have a little more respect for me. You are my bestfriend. Start acting like it.

Adrian is now the manager and captain of Abacus Football Club. And I'm playing the anchor role. Arguably the most important role. It's the role that Roy Keane, Viera and Gerrard hold. Because of that I'm starting to train like a mad man. Joined Soho gyms, even if it does cost £50 a month. On a more negative note, the ex-captain is starting to get on my nerves. Not that he wasnt last year. He doesn't get what my role is all about.

I've got my placement in West Middlesex. I'm in a group with 3 other people. Including this chinese girl, from malaysia, I think. She sits behind me in exams.

Medical school is getting pretty hardcore. 1 week in we've ploughed into Neuroscience, Anatomy, Communication skills, Pharmacology, MCD and Endocrinology. Anyone reading who does not understand the terms I just used, I repeat (in layman's terms) "we've ploughed into brain science, cutting up the human body, talking to patients, drugs, blood and hormones."

I've got a cousin who seems to be adding girls he doesn't know to his friendster list like 50 cent is signing rap acts to G-unit. Just in case YOU are reading and don't understand what I just said, because afterall, you're only 14, I will make it simple for you. Stop embarassing yourself.

My parents will be in London this week. It'll be nice having them around. Didn't seem much of them this summer.

Genesis

Then God said: "Let us make man in our image, after our likeness. Let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, the birds of the air, and the cattle, and over all the wild animals and all the creatures that crawl on the ground."

Genesis 1:26


I'd like to say "thank you" for the support I've received from my friends over the past month. Thank you for all your prayers. I felt it all the way. I am eternally grateful.

I will try to keep my posts regular and readable.

God Bless.